The Whispering in my Soul

I talk to her though no one knows
She sees my every flaw
She's watched me since I was a child

He talks to me as I walk
We share our thoughts; our hearts
He's been with me before I could talk
Although I did not know his name

What think you
Do yo love me
And hate me aswell
Spending life together is a mixture of heaven and hell

From time to time I try to run
Escape her omnipresent gaze
I want to do life on my own

But then
The trees drip drops of melted snow
And the wind brings back her voice
I do not want to be alone
Come back my love, come back

So strong is his presence at times
So loud is her voice
So comforting his arms around me
The one who is me but not
Who rescues me in pain
And rejoices with me in times of joy

Who are you
Will I ever know
Perhaps it doesn't matter
As long as you keep listening, loving, and
whispering deep inside my soul. --NABK

Nonsense

Rachel
Ruby, garnet, Capricorn
jiggle giggle
shut the door
there is no sense anymore

deep and dark
frightfully , fitfully funny
see them laugh
hear the sound
red and green and blue

chicklet
lollypop shoes
delightful shoes
I need to know these things

it is over
but it is not
spinning round and round
slinky slinky what a wonderful thing

Nonsense
stuff and nonsense
pppppssha
----NABK

Does she know she's not alone

Sitting
waiting
acting
the days blend into one another
wasted time
time going by in a blur before my eyes
distant
detatched
indifferent
and yet not

what is wrong here
where is the enthusiasm
where is the hope

asleep while awake
I see her shake
her voice wobbles as she speaks
am I her
is she I

what can we do
helpless
trying
for one moment
then slipping into dispassionate apathy
for another

there she is again
or is that another
how many of these mumified zombies
rome the streets
smiling
nodding
laughing

eat
drink
exercise
it takes the pain away
the dull ache of time slipping away

what is the answer
is there an answer
what is the question
do you really care
yes for a moment
no in another

air
breathe
fresh air
summer air
spring air
fall air
winter air
air

there they are
breathing
a crowd of the sightless
unable to detect each other
thinking they are alone

daunting
so daunting
jump out of the rabbit hole
drink the potion and you will grow
but it is all so far away

curl up in a ball
rock back and forth
feel the comfort of a hand
stroking your back
a kiss on your cheek
eyes staring into your own

you are not alone
this is but a moment
you will be fine
but for now
it is enough not to be alone

----NABK